by Tara Frejas
Fi Legaspi is living the dream working in Seoul as a road manager for one of South Korea's hottest bands, East Genesis Project. Until she isn't.
When she finds herself in the middle of a scandal and a hostile fangirl witch hunt, Fi seeks the comfort of home, and to her surprise, not the person she had been pining for for years. All too suddenly it's no longer her career on the line, but also her heart. Will she walk away from everything that matters to her or fight to keep her dream alive?
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Fi is sitting alone in a meeting room, ear phones plugged into her ears, reading through EG Project’s schedules for the week and making notes in her planner. The opening riff of a song makes her pause.
So it’s like this, let me tell you how it is
I would hold you in my arms
say ‘I love you’ with a kiss, kiss, kiss
Our every single day would be
the very best, no less—but I guess
nothing is ever as it seems
every single thing is the stuff of daydreams
None of all the other EG Project songs have resonated so strongly with Fi like “Stuff of Daydreams” had. In fact, she had found herself wondering many times if Jo Yihwan had taken a peek inside her heart somehow and decided to write about the secrets it held.
That isn’t possible, of course.
How could he, when he has been so busy looking at someone else all this time?
“Noona....” Minchan disturbs her contemplation with a gentle hand on her shoulder. Fi is mildly surprised when she looks up at him; she didn’t even realize he’d entered the room. “Noona, look at this,” he says, sliding a tablet into her hands.
Her eyes are fixed on a picture of Yihwan and top actress Han Haera posted side by side on an article. Above them are the words: Are EG Project’s Jo Yihwan and National Goddess Han Haera Dating?
“No. No, no...” Fi looks up at the bearer of this news, brusquely pulling her earphones off. “Where’s Yihwan?”
“I saw him with Minja noona a couple of hours ago. They were discussing the upcoming tour, I think?”
Fi stands up, spaces out, and sits back down again. How could this happen? Yihwan dating Haera had been a closely guarded secret, something only a handful of people know. And while they have broken up a long time ago, news like this will definitely not die unless one or the other releases a statement. She gets up again.
“Where are you going, noona?”
“To find Yihwan. Or Gabriel. Whoever enters my line of vision first.”
* * *
News got to Yihwan before Fi could. She finds him alone in one of the rehearsal studios and confirms his distress in the way his eyes look unfocused, how he unnecessarily shifts his weight in front of the piano.
They don’t breathe a word to each other for a long while.
The silence is broken when the door opens behind her, Steven and Minchan quietly sliding in. Yihwan finally lifts his head. Fi could swear she saw the two boys flinch from the corner of her eye.
“Come on, you guys,” Yihwan says, attempting a tone of nonchalance. “It’s fine. It’ll be gone after a while.”
“Are you all right, hyung?” Minchan asks. He is a step behind Steven, and though he stands taller than both of his hyung-deul, to Fi he appeares to be a child cowering behind his older brother.
“Sure.” Yihwan’s fingers hit the keys. It’s a new melody, one Fi hasn’t heard before but could recognize potential from. He must have been trying to write a song before she found him. “Have you ever seen any news about Steven dating anyone last over a week?”
That’s a point right there. And it’s a hilarious one if not for the fact that Fi, Steven, and Minchan have all been sitting in the front row during the spectacle that was Han Haera breaking Yihwan’s heart. And although it has been almost two years ago, they know Yihwan has never really moved on. Haera became akin to an invisible imprint on all of his songs—a phrase here, a refrain there—and now that netizens have somehow brought this skeleton back to the surface, Fi wonders how Yihwan would deal.
And how she would.
Aside from her obvious love affair with words and persistent muses, Tara is very passionate about being caffeinated, musical theatre, certain genres of music, dancing, dogs, good food, and romancing Norae, her ukelele. She owns a male bunny named Max who sometimes tries to nibble on her writing notes.
Fun fact: She's a Piscean. Go figure.